Freak

Everyday I feel the urges growing deeper withinI try to focus, but all I seem to see is your skinReflecting light amid the candles as you beg me for moreWhile I grab your hair and throw you face down_ Kathi:They are all very loving and everything but i am always so stressed.(25 August 2016) Kathi:There is more [...]
_

Ciara:
I'm probably just overreacting though.
(31 August 2016)

Ciara:
I feel selfish for thinking like this, but it's a constant grip on my mind, a heaviness that follows me, a weight that I carry... I may look into therapy now since I think about it.
(31 August 2016)

Ciara:
But I don't think she'd want that, she gets lonely easy.
(31 August 2016)

Ciara:
I'm thinking once I get my job I could send her money to help her out with whatever she needs.
(31 August 2016)

Ciara:
I don't know if my mom will ever be okay with me moving out now since I'm thinking about it, she has anxiety (agoraphobia, PTSD) and isn't financially well off.
(31 August 2016)

Ciara:
I won't move out because I'm not abandoning my mom like that, but I do wish I had my own place.
(31 August 2016)

Ciara:
If I don't talk to anybody they think there's something wrong with me.
(31 August 2016)

Ciara:
I'm the type of person who enjoys alone time where I don't have to talk to anybody.
(31 August 2016)

Ciara:
My mom and I are alright, but I often feel obligated to give her company since she has absolutely no life.
(31 August 2016)

Ciara:
My mom and him squabble from time to time, and I'm usually sucked into it.
(31 August 2016)