Lonely in waiting

I am self employed for 24 years, white man who needs a girl of my own.The one thing I don’t want is to be told what I want to hear. I prefer to hear the harsh reality than a pleasant version of the way I want things to be. I need a girl who I [...]
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Shaun:
Like she's the one who's the angel.
(4 October 2016)

Shaun:
Even more than they love me because i'm often the bad one in our duo.
(4 October 2016)

Shaun:
I can't even just stop being friends with her because she knows everyone I know and they love her.
(4 October 2016)

Shaun:
They never tell me they're doing things.
(4 October 2016)

Shaun:
So... we have this group of friends and she's always doing things with them behind my back.
(4 October 2016)

Shaun:
But she likes to invite herself.
(4 October 2016)

Shaun:
She never includes me in group things and when I want to include her she never wants to.
(4 October 2016)

Shaun:
I once dated someone and she was jealous that i spent time with my datemate.
(4 October 2016)

Shaun:
Buts he never includes me when she does things, even with people i knew before her.
(4 October 2016)

Shaun:
I can't do anything with someone else without her getting jealous.
(4 October 2016)