my missing mojo

I’m just not feeling it lately. I don’t feel confident. I don’t feel beautiful or sexy. I don’t feel ugly either, I just feel normal. But of course normal isn’t enough. I don’t have anything enticing_ Rosette:I cleaned the kitchen spotless earlier because I was bored.(15 January 2018) Andree:When we have to go home, she tells me [...]
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Era:
I can't decide on if it is or not.
(15 January 2018)

Era:
She's told multiple people she likes me (I know because they keep bugging me about it). Then one of our friends tells me that she talks about me a lot and calls be beautiful all the time.
(15 January 2018)

Era:
We are in the same friend group, and our friends keep trying to push us together and it's super stressful because idk if she is just playing me.
(15 January 2018)

Era:
She texts me every day, and feels bad when she doesn't.
(15 January 2018)

Era:
I want to believe it's real, but I'm to scared to believe it is.
(15 January 2018)

Era:
And she's told me she won't leave me.
(15 January 2018)

Era:
But she's begged me not to leave her a lot.
(15 January 2018)

Era:
I've been hurt in the past, so maybe that's what is scaring me.
(15 January 2018)

Era:
But I'm scared she's just playing with me.
(15 January 2018)

Era:
So I know she is lesbian like me, and she's told me she has feelings for me.
(15 January 2018)